Love

When you feel
Like you’re carrying the world
Upon tiny shoulders
I love you
And there’s no one around
To comfort your screams
I love you

When you’re so broken
By every mistake
That you can’t seem to forget
I love you
That everything feels
Like it’s entirely your fault
I love you

When your head spins
And runs at a billion miles an hour
I love you
And it feels like
It might explode at any moment
From all the searching
For any form of comfort
I love you

When you are unable to do
All the things
That once made you strong
I love you
When you feel
Like you’ve failed at everything
Everything
And there’s nothing you can point to
To show the world you have value
I love you

When you feel like
You’ve lost the meaning of love
That love has entirely deserted
I love you
When you can’t reach out
And touch someone for comfort
I love you

When everyone else's pain
Is driving you insane
And you can't stop trying
To fix something
that isn't your own
I love you
When you care so much
You don't know what to do with yourself
Because the emotional itching
Is driving you mad
I love you

When you feel so alone
That the entire world
Seems to be consumed 
By loneliness itself
I love you
That everyone and everything
You've ever loved
Feels like
It's just so far out of reach
That you may collapse from the loneliness
And die alone
I love you

When your mind is completely full
With an obsession with the clock
I love you
EVery passing second
Watched in its passing
And feels like an hour
And you're sure you're not going to make it
I love you

When you cannot let go of control
Despite everyone saying you should
I love you
When it feels like
That desperation for control
Will drive you insane
I love you

When you have 
No idea what to do
Because it just 
Fucking hurts so much
I love you
When your chest is bursting
And your brain is melting
And the suffering seems endless
I love you

When your back aches
And your mind spins
And you’re so tired you can hardly think
I love you
So tired of searching for a solution
That never seems to emerge
I love you

When you don't feel like
You have the strength to try any more
And have no idea
Where solutions may lie
I love you
When all is confusing
And the headache is so intense
It feels like your brain
Will rip itself apart
When you wish with all your breath
That you could think of something else
Or just stop thinking
I love you

When you’re lost
I love you

When you’re grieving
I love you

When you’re confused
I love you 

When you’re baffled
I love you

When you can’t find an answer
I love you

When you cannot stop thinking
I love you

When you hate yourself
I love you

When you feel like you’re going to die
I love you

When everything 
Everything
Hurts
I love you

No matter what
No matter what
No matter what anyone has said
Or done
I love you

I love you
You are you
It doesn’t matter if you change
Or stay exactly the same
If the pain vanishes
Or never ceases
I love you
I have always loved you
I will always love you
I love you

© Simon Jolly 2023